The year started off well. I was studying, action plans were in motion, goals were being met and then on February 20, 2019 at 9:30 am my life changed forever. My Daddy passed away. My world stopped and I was exposed to another side of life that I had no experience in navigating. The man who has been a wonderful husband, father, grandfather, great grandfather, nurturer, provider, encourager, prayer and the leader of our family was gone.
It has been hard to function and I felt like I was in a daze, doing things but not doing things. Reminiscing memory after memory, crying then laughing, I am flooded by a range of emotions and an ache that won’t go away.
My Daddy has always been active and present in my life. I attribute my strength, work ethic, personality and ever present smile to him. As his oldest living daughter, he taught me a lot about life, how to survive and how to treat people. I watched him live his personal values and love people unconditionally. Whenever we came in or left his presence he would often say, “I will say a prayer for you” or “I am praying for you.” Daddy was always covering his family.
He always wanted to make sure that people were ok and happy. I know that he would not want any of us to be sad or stop living our lives. As I try to return to a sense of normalcy, although I know that my life will never be the same because a big part of my life left the earth but will never be forgotten. My family’s love for him and his love for us will live on forever because true love never dies and as Christians we know that we will see him again. God loaned him to this earth for 85 years and then called him home.
And now I try to pick up where I left off and carry on without him, it will be hard but as he always taught me to put my faith in God because He can help you make it through anything.
Until next time love, peace and blessings.